Rotten apples…

18 06 2010

There is a Secret Delhi in India… maybe not so secret once you get in here… It’s populated with all kind of people… wanna be’s, party organizers, players, naïve girls, not so naïve, Indians, expats, East Europeans, rich people, people that want very badly to be rich, girls flashing their Louis Vuitton bags, girls wanting a Luis Vuitton bag, interns, call girls in disguise, nice people, not so nice people, wolves dressed in lamb skin… and the list can go on and on…

The temptation is everywhere you go after 10pm… Like beautiful beautiful apples. Almost perfect… and you don’t realize that is all a mask till you take a bite… I was tempted and I took one… a very small one… It was sweet at the beginning… The truth is I have always enjoyed the game… But while chewing my little bite with my East European teeth, it became bitter… just like the game!


“Only interested in Russian, Ukrainian and East European Women 🙂 :-)”, „I don’t like PDA” (Public Display of Affection), „I want to spoil you!”, „I want a Russian pool dancer” and the list may go one… I asked myself in the last couple of weeks if I want this, all this… Can I handle it? Do I want to handle it? The answer is no. I don’t want this and I can’t handle it… I am not a player… I don’t want to be one 🙂 If somehow I gave the wrong impression, I apologize 😛

The kind of hug I need can’t be found in „The Secret Delhi”. There is no real affection in there. No real honesty… I sometimes do mistakes in my experience… I don’t regret one single mistake I made in the past 25 years… Hopefully I will be wiser in the next 25… The easy way is so tempting sometimes… but in this life nothing comes for free… no matter what the beautiful red apple says 😛 Am I temped for a second bite…? Maybe… Some red apples are sooo mouth watering… but Secret Delhi did teach me an important lesson… I can stop whenever I want to… I guess the time is now 🙂

So I will be careful from now on… I am here for the good reasons and today proved that to me once again… I know who I am… I have the capacity to understand and forgive myself for my mistakes… and I never repeat them 🙂

Goodbye Secret Delhi… I know you won’t miss me… I was barely there… I won’t miss you either… from now on you are barely there for me 🙂 Thank God for the right happenings at the right time 🙂 Somebody up there loves me 🙂

India I love you, with or without „The Secret Delhi”




4 responses

18 06 2010

Good job alex i m proud of you !I am sure you are a smart girl but still Let me know if you need any help with people ..

19 06 2010

So far so good Rashmi 🙂 :*

19 06 2010

What did happened to change your mind? What made it impossible to handleany longer?


19 06 2010

It’s not about being not capable to handle it 🙂 I just want to be with people I can trust for a while 🙂 Without fake smiles and all the rest 🙂 I little bit of honesty for a change 🙂 I guess I miss my friends a little bit too much…

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